This Week...

Hm haven't updated yet this week. And I am bored at the moment so I'll just go on about this week which nobody should really care about haha! Yesterday was a fun little birthday party for 2 friends. Then an afterparty type thing. Both were soooo much fun, just seeing everyone together like it should be. Then today, my sister and I celebrated her birthday bu making pretzels that were in the shape of anything but pretzels. A giraffe who was named Bo-Taye (bo for bodacious ;D ), "Hello Kitty on acid", heart, Dharma fish biscuits, and other various shapes. Then we Walked to dunkin donuts (as we always do) and got honked and hollered at yet again by a guy in a silver convertable. We work it. XD
Aaaaand for the days to come, tomorrow is just a chill day till work, then Thursday...shopping!!! With 2 of mes amis! Then Friday I is beaching it with my bffl whilst munching on some tasty cookie. We have MUCH to catch up on.
Bye for now!

"Smile like you don't give a damn about the consequence, just say anything, we say summer holds such wonderful things."

Selfish rant, pay no mind.

Okay this is just for me to get everything out so please don't comment. I don't tell people everything, or really anything when I'm upset so please don't feel compelled to read this, but if you do read, please pretend as if you hadn't. I really can't talk to people about myself.

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I'm awful, I'm selfish, I'm a disappointment. Everytime my family talks to me, this is what I take out of it. My sibling frequently tells me how horrible I am, and that I don't care about anyone in the house. However false this statement, I can't help but feel guilty everytime he says it. I don't know what to do anymore to please anyone. I'm constantly told I'm lazy, snobby, mean, selfish- why did they bring me into this family? I'll never figure it out. I try so hard just to make them happy, but it hurts. It never works anyway. In school, I'm pressured for grades, which is understandable. But this year I was not doing as well as I usually do, because to me, almost everything got harder. I did okay, but just not as well as years past. My parents got the impression that I didn't care. I was never actually "punnished" but inside I begged to be. I would gladly take a grounding rather than be looked at like a failure or a lost cause. This year is going to be so much worse because of SATs and college planning and I don't think I can take it. I've always been able to put on a happy face, so well that no one even asked if I was okay because they just assumed that was the case. Always happy. Either that or they just didn't care. But now I'm breaking down and I don't know if I can put on a smile again this year.

It's not just school, it's everything. According to my parents, I'm a terrible sister to my younger brother, I have an attitude problem, and I just don't care. Everytime I try to talk to these people I get lectured or yelled at. So I go for a while without talking, which also gets me in trouble. I've tried explainging to them that I can't speak because I don't know what to say that won't get me in trouble. Mother takes it the wrong way and she gets mad, and she thinks I'm mad when really, I'm just frustrated. I'm scared that nothing is going to turn out like I've been planning since I was really young because maybe I really am lazy. Maybe it is coming to the point where I don't care. But I do care about my family, and I try to be a good daughter, sister, student and friend. I guess I'm just incapable of being such.

I'm selfish. I'm careless. I'm sorry.

"You can take my life, but you can't take it with you."

Nickelback Concert

So bookworm31 and I went to a Nickelback concert yesterday with special guests Saving Abel, Papa Roach, and Hinder. I have never seen a better show. I can't even describe how it made me feel to hear all of them live. Saving Abel came on first and started with New Tattoo. Not a song I know very well but the vocals of this band are extraordinary. The songs sounded the same as they do on their album, only I thought their voices were actually stronger. They played all my favorites. 18 Days, Drowning (face down), and Addicted. They were my personal favorite for the opening bands. It rained pretty hard so at this point the place was still empty. Papa Roach came next and there were a few more people in the audience, though it still wasn't full. My dad didn't like him at all because he's not a fan of his type of music. He played Scars and Lifeline which made my bffl and I very happy. These guys reeeally worked the stage too. They came out into the audience and ran all over the place. Lastly was Hinder. They also sounded like their albums. They entered playing Use Me and gave a great show. They also played Better Than Me and Lips of an Angel so our favorites were covered. They left and we waited to hear Nickelback. They came on around 9. Big entrance, sparks, booms, and fire. This band is already one of my favorites, but I love them even more after that preformance. Chad Kroeger as well as the rest of the band, got soooo into the show, and were pretty hilarious. They also brought a surprise to the stage. They had a jam session with the lead singers of all 3 opening bands, and a special gues, the singer from ACDC. They rocked the song Highway to Hell. They then continued the show with songs from their first album all the way to their newest, Dark Horse, talking to the audience and just having a great time. They all cleared the stage after a bit except for the drummer, and the drummer played an epic beat for 5 minutes straight. He was so intense and had great arm muscles hehehe. Also by the time Nickelback came on, the place was packed. we looked back at the lawn (because we got the upgrades thank goodness) and they were squished together like sardines. Every seat around us was filled as well. They finished the show and we sang along with every song. So now I have tons of videos, and no voice, proof of an excellent show. The best I'll ever hope to see.

"With you, I'd withstand, all of Hell to hold your hand."

Harry Potter

So I don't keep up to speed with any of the Harry Potter books or movies but I went with about 10 other people to see The Half Blood Prince (which turned out to be snape OMGZ!) It was sooooo much greater than I thought it would be. Hilarious in fact. I loved it and will own it when it comes out and that's saying a lot because I don't have like, any movies. And so I can fully understand everything, bookworm31 and I will be having ourselves a Harry Potter marathon eventually. XD
I must say, all of the actors were amazing and I love the characters. And I have a new respect for the lovepoisoned Ron and drunken Harry. Plus the innocent blond girl whose name I keep forgetting. And the Weasly twins too, but I've always liked them. Malfoy's eyebrows were not bleached like the rest of his hair as bookworm31 reminded me throughout the movie. =) Even if they were, I still don't find him attractive.
But I had a great time. This movie made me laugh more than I could ever have expected from a HP movie.

NoOoOoOoO!!!

I text. all day everyday. But it's not like I have a ton of friends or anything, I'm not popular by anyone's standards. I like to keep it that way. But I text the same few people constantly. Especially one of them. It starts when we wake up, and ends when we go to bed. But apparantly she's just as fond of texting as I am because she has now been put on a 100 text per day limit. WHAT DO WE DO NOW????
CRISIS.
I know she's upset too, because after all it's happening to HER and I'm just the selfish friend complaining here. (sorry bout that)

I know I'll still talk to her and I'm just being dramatic but I'll miss you!


"I love you forever, forever is over"

Just when I thought they were happy...

Okay so my parents have been nothing but grumpy lateley, like severely grumpy. Dad is just mad at everything (including us) and mom is feeding off dad's mood and taking it out on me and brother who is being a typical little sibling and arguing with me any chance he gets. It seemed to be calming down a little until...
dad woke up this morning and someone had broken into his truck. Thank god only his CDs and the change in one of the door pockets was taken because he keeps a lot of stuf in there.
But regardless he's pissed. And currently at the dentist so that is not going to make him feel any better.
Brother is playing detective (only he thinks it's real) and is failing. Go figure.

But I was glad to get out of the house yesterday to go to bookworm31's wittle get together XD
It was much fun. (Thanks love!)
And that's about it.

"Let's burn our dreams into the skyline"

Randomness and birthdays

Soooo my family's loooong visitation here has ceased and they have returned home. I have been complaining about them so much but now I'm feeling pretty guilty because my grandparents are, well...old and this could very well have been the last time I see them. They're just wearing out and especially my grandfather is too tired to do much but sit and sleep all day.
But at least I can go on to see my friends now. I've had enough family togetherness. Going to a fun little party tonight to kick off my freedom. XD
Then I will just randomly appear at friends houses or they will appear at mine for the rest of the summer which is perfectly okay with me!

Also looking forward to all the birthdays this month. (I'll just use initials)
First is BL
Then the combine party of naminoo and AL
And finally one of my closest and dearly missed bffs ADG (as she commonly signs her name)
3 days in a row!
And I've already gone shopping for the second 2 and I know part of what I'm getting the first one. XD
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU GUYS!

"I've never told a lie, and that makes me a liar. I've never made a bet, but we gamble with desire"

All Time Low (response to naminoo)

Okay so I really don't write reviews but this doesn't count as a review anyway because I'm just responding to my good friend naminoo's review on ATL because he is a new listener and has made possibly the best decision of his musical life to start listening. His description of their style is pretty acurate. I usually go with carefree party style with a kick ass attitude. You can hear it in the lyrics, instrumentals, and voice of the GORGEOUS Alex Gaskarth. (with back up help from other band members)
And naminoo, I reccomend you listen to The Party Scene, Running from Lions, Lullabies, Vegas, Shameless, Stay Awake (dreams only last for a night), Let it Roll and ALL of their newest album, Nothing Personal.
And everyone else should listen as well.
I love it all and I am glad to have a new fan to sing with!
As well as a preexisting fan, bookworm 31.

"So take my life, I'll hand it to you. And you can try on my clothes, but you can't fill these shoes."

JDRF walk to cure diabetes

Okay so I've already told you about the walk for wishes. But I have a cousin who wants me to walk for the JDRF in October. Anyone who wants to help (if its not too much with the walk for wishes also) Please pleeeease let me know. We already have a team registered and I would love for my friends to walk beside me. I don't expect anyone to donate or ask for crazy amounts of money but just the support of my lovelies would be sooo much appreciated.
The site will provide you with all details.

www.jdrf.org

"Pick the poison and pour yourself a glass"

Atlantic City

So I was forced into the car with the family (yet again) and shipped off to roam the boardwalk of Atlantic City with mother and brother while father grandparents and aunt wandered the casinos. Oh the fun we had. (please pick up on the sarcasm this instant.) We went on the beach after arguing and sat ourselves down next to this mother who did not like her child. She proceeded to tell the little girl to pretend she wasn't her mother for the day and to go away. Then they started talking about henna tattoos and the little girl wanted one on her back. Her older sister(?) told her she would look like a tramp, which the child obviously didn't know the meaning of because she then asked what it was. Her mother then told her to look it up on the internet. GREAT PARENTING!
I better have gotten a good tan out of this.
So this was followed by more arguing, lectures, walking and waiting for the rest of my family to get out of the casinos. When they finally did get out, they had to go have lunch at some fancy restaurant while I continue to wait and argue with my mother.
Then the creeps come out...
First, there is this guy with no leg sitting by the trash can with a jar begging for money. But he clearly wasn't too bad off because he was listening to an ipod. Then this guy wearing a boot for his broken leg comes by picking chewed gum off of the ground, eating out of trash cans, and smoking used cigarettes out of ash trays. He hobbles away and then comes these two foriegn guys. They start screaming at each other in a language I don't even want to understand at this point, and start pushing each other. Finally they go their seperate ways. So I start to smell cigarette smoke and realize that another guy with a fake leg is standing next to me smoking. He then confronts the legless guy asking for change and says "hey what are you doing?" *points to leg* "I walk." *walks away*. I'm a littled creeped out by now so I decide I'll go into the shopping center and find a bathroom. Just as soon as this shirtless guy in short shorts gets out of my way...
So after all of the creepers (which were all witnessed within like, a half hour) we waited and fought some more until family was done with dinner. Then we left for home at long last which would have been a miserable ride full of old people music had I not had my ipod listening to All Time Low the whole way =)
Their new album is EPIC by the way.
So now I'm still stuck with family until tomorrow afternoon when I get my life back.

Till Then!

"Dressed up as myself to live in the shaddow of who I'm supposed to be"

One Week!

In 7 days from today me and bookworm31 are going to witness an epic night of music called a concert. Nickelback, Saving Abel, Hinder, and Papa Roach will be preforming. I have been told by a family friend who's entire life consists of music because she majors in it, that Papa Roach was amazing on stage when she saw them as an opening band for someone else. That was the first time I've been told that the opener was better than the featured band. So if you can't tell, I'm excited. XD
Even though the deal is that my family has tag along, I don't care because bookworm31 will be there and we have almost identical taste in music and are prepared to sing our lungs out.
Also we're gonna try to see if we can get better seats when we get there because right now we only have lawn seats. But even if we can't do that it'll still be one of the best concerts I could hope to see.

And Today...
I apparantly am going out to lunch with a friend of my grandparents...? Go figure. Then I go out once again to dinner with mom and grandma while dad grandpa and brother go to the car races. I don't think I've eaten breakfast lunch and dinner at home in weeks. Oh how I long for a simple peanut butter and jelly sandwitch.
But it's okay because in between lunch and dinner, I get to go to the mall with bookworm31 mentioned above. Hopefully I can get some birthday shopping done and then a little happy Tuesday gift for myself =)


"Your wilted roses make me cry, a sentimental sign of rejection."

Best Friends

A good or best friend!-an email I recieved a while ago but it never fails to make me smile
A good friend will comfort you when he rejects you. A best friend will go up and ask him, "It's because you're gay, isn't it?"
A good friend will be there for you when he breaks up with you. A best friend will call him up and whisper, "Seven days..."
A good friend helps you up when you fall. A best friend keeps on walking saying, "Walk much, dumb ass?"
A good friend helps you find your prince. A best friend kidnaps him and brings him to you.
A good friend will ask you if you're okay when you're crying. A best friend will laugh at you and say, "Ha Ha, Loser!"
A good friend will offer you a soda. A best friend will dump theirs on you.
A good friend gives you their umbrella in the rain. A best friend takes yours and says, "Run - beep - run!"
A good friend will help you move. A best friend will help you move the bodies.
A good friend will bail you out of jail. A best friend would be in the room next to you saying, "That was awesome! Let's do it again!"
A good friend has never seen you cry. A best friend won't tell anyone else that you cried...just laugh about it in private with you whenyou aren't down anymore.
A good friend asks you to write down your number. A best friend has you on speed dial.
A good friend will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing. A best friend will kick the whole crowds ass that left you.
A good friend knows a few things about you. A best friend could write a very embarrassing biography on your life story.
A good friend tells you she knows how you feel. A best friend just sits down and cries.

Friend: Will help me find my way when I'm lost
Best Friend: Will be the one messing with my compass, stealing my map and giving me bad directions
Friend: Will help me learn to drive
Best Friend: Will help me roll the car into the lake so I can collect insurance
Friend: Will watch my pets when I go away
Best Friend: Won't let me go away
Friend: Will help me up when I fall down
Best Friend: Will point and laugh because she tripped me
Friend: Will bail me out of jail
Best Friend: Will be sitting beside me saying "Dang, we screwed up"
Friend: Will go to a concert with me
Best Friend: Will kidnap the band with me
Friend: Calls my parents "Mr." or "Mrs."
Best Friend: Calls my parents "Mom" or "Dad"
Friend: Asks me for my number
Best friend: Asks me for her number
Friend: Hides me from the cops
Best Friend: is probably the reason they are after me in the first place
Friend: lets me make an idiot of myself in public
Best Friend: Is up there with me making an idiot out of herself too.
Friends: Fade
Best Friends: Are 4 Ever

Walk for Wishes returns

Thanks to a new and much more organized captain who I call Scrubbles, I will be walking to raise money for the make-a-wish foundation for the second year. Our team is an epic group of those freaks I seemed to have called my friends in my previous post. Hopefully we can get some sponsors or just raise our goal of $300 from friends and family. We had fun x10000 last year and it shows in the many pictures taken by my talented soon-to-be well-known photographer friend J.
And half the fun is doing the work as a team. Our meetings and T-shirt decorating sessions will result in chaos and laughter, as they usually do. Maybe we can actually get a soliciting time in this year from a kind store who doesn't mind rude children begging for money. We may as well be well dressed hobos, but it's okay because we bathe regularly.
Last year we raised over one thousand dollars, thanks to friends, famlies, and the companies who sponsored us.
If you are interested in walking or supporting the foundation please visit www.wishnj.org

"So I will run until my feet don't touch the ground, as the waves carry me out, keep listening."

Daiquiris

Only one person here should know that the title of this blog does not mean I am drunk or an alcoholic. It is just a silly little inside joke that expanded into more silly little inside jokes, all having to do with alcoholic beverages. Cars, bunnurtles, hampsters, everything. So I guess this is the place where I can write about random happenings and such, but for me to do that, I'll have to wait for those happenings to happen. I'll also put up quotes from my beautiful crazy friends. (no worries I won't use your names.) And I've already gotten permission to steal surveys from a certain someone because of my lack of accessing them on my own.

So I'm KC. but thats all you're getting.
Friends, music, beach and more friends = life.
I love walking to random places, writing and the color blue. And puppies. I like puppies. I'm really quite shy and unsure at some times unless i'm with friends i'm comfortable with. (which is all of them) But just because I'm quiet doesn't mean I won't defend myself or my friends when needed.

So recently...
Well family has been visiting for two weeks so I've had almost no social life. We all went out to an aunt's house in the middle of nowhere for a while too. Aaaaaand since family is still here I will not be very social until they leave. But I did get to go to the mall/movies a few days ago. They didn't like us very much in the mall and we went to see "ice age" or so that's what our ticket stubs said. ;]
Hoping to see my much missed bffl tomorrow and/or friday. XD
Nada else going on so I leave with that said.

"I took a walk for the very first time to the dark side of the dance floor"